Real life is much stranger than fiction, no matter how you edit it! And right now, two very disparate times in my life are colliding and creating new meaning in ways I never saw coming.
Those of you who have been with me from the beginning of this blog, please bear with me. You will see this is really about THAT WAY MADNESS LIES… Those who are new to this blog, I think it is best to quote the indomitable Bette Davis as Margo Channing in the classic ALL ABOUT EVE: “Fasten you seat belts, it is going to be a bumpy night!”
32 years ago, I made my college thesis documentary film about a 15-year-old figure skater I had trained with in Clackamas, Oregon. She was going to her first national skating competition. Eight years later that girl was involved in one of the biggest sports scandals in history. She became known to the world as Tonya Harding.
Clips of that thesis film, SHARP EDGES, have been shown all over the world and used in programs such as CBS 60 Minutes; GSN Anything to Win - Tonya Harding; ESPN 30 for 30 The Price of Gold; and NBC’s Sochi Olympics - Tonya & Nancy. It is fascinating, as someone who made a documentary before the scandal, and then participated in documentaries after the scandal, to see that the only variables in the narratives told have been Tonya’s. Now a fiction feature film has been released called I, TONYA, starring Margot Robbie and Allison Janney. I knew that Tonya had spoken to the screenwriter and sold her “life rights," — a term that kind of blows my mind — and I wondered what new narrative we were going to hear this time because, well, it is after all a fictional film. And we live in a culture where facts don’t matter and just because someone says something it is expected to be taken as “truth."
What I did not expect, perhaps naively, was how much imagery would be used from my film to give this new narrative validity. I am not meaning to imply that the production of I, TONYA did anything wrong. They did not. Margot Robbie, who was also one of the producers of the film, was clear that she was creating a character. She was very kind to say that my film SHARP EDGES was seminal in finding HER character, her CREATION. But what is the effect upon an audience whether intended or not? Even Tonya Harding has mistakenly seen herself in Margot Robbie's creation. So, it seems, does the audience who has completely swallowed the fictional narrative. Allison Janney is physically transformed into the image of Tonya’s mother before our eyes, complete with a fake fur coat and the family parrot on her shoulder. That image of the real Mrs. Harding does not exist anywhere outside of my documentary SHARP EDGES. But the film's character is not the real Mrs. Harding, and many of the scenes with Janney as Mrs. Harding simply did not happen. No harm done if the audience cares enough to be discerning about what is presented to them and why. I am old-school in that I completely understand and practice the creative license that must be taken at times when adapting a story to fiction. The condensing and distilling of facts happens in documentary film as well. And while it may be shape-shifting of circumstance and bending of facts, it should be carefully crafted with a razor-sharp focus on revealing a more elusive “truth.” And I know with certainty that truth, even truth backed by facts, can be subjective.
I wonder about movies I have loved this year, like THE POST. Did the inevitable changes to the facts, circumstances and chronology have irreparable damage to “the truth?” Or did it give me, as an audience member, a better understanding? And should these concerns matter this much to me. As a filmmaker I think it should. As an audience member, this healthy skepticism makes me want to know the story beyond the film.
The filmmakers of I TONYA spin a tale that takes their audience on a roller-coaster ride. It is the after-effects of that ride that alarm me. Even though the character of Tonya, in the film, references that there is no “truth” there, audiences have been coming away thinking that they somehow have a “more” accurate understand of the real Tonya and the circumstances that surrounded her. And then, irony of ironies, it is Tonya herself, in her subsequent interviews since the film's opening, who reminds us with her behavior and ever-changing narratives that I, TONYA is a work of fiction.
I did a radio Interview with Portland's Sheila Hamilton. (She is also a spirited mental health advocate who did a wonderful piece about THAT WAY MADNESS LIES… for the premiere last May that is archived on this website.) We talked about the reasons this story still captures the imaginations of so many and why the ABC 20/20 special that brought together SHARP EDGES, me, Tonya, Margot, Tonya’s mother and the other usual suspects, was so widely watched. In our contemporary-culture ‘fact-based evidence’ is a dirty concept and people seem to believe something is true just because they heard it said. And films made in one period about another period (whether it be the past or future) reveal more about the time it is made than the time in which it is trying to illuminate.
You can listen to that interview here. I speak rather freely about how hard it is to see such interest in this story and SHARP EDGES when I think THAT WAY MADNESS LIES… speaks to one of the most pressing social issues of RIGHT NOW: severe mental illness and our broken, treacherous system of dealing with it (or not dealing with it.)
Which brings me to the ABC Special and how it relates to THAT WAY MADNESS LIES... I clipped a 5-minute piece of the ABC special for you — only in terms of how it pertains to SHARP EDGES — to help you set the scene:
ABC Truth and Lies: The Tonya Harding Story's look at my film SHARP EDGES
The day after this appeared on television, I am getting a lot of phone calls about my participation and my film. I am doing interviews, etc. In the evening there is another call from a ‘503’ area code, so, I know it's an Oregon number.
"It’s your brother. I saw you and your movie on TV last night talking about Tonya.”
"Duanne? Are you out of jail?”
“Yeah, they dismissed the charges and let me go the night before last. It was too late to get a voucher at a shelter, so Ken let me stay at his place. That’s where I saw you on television. You know, I remember Mom making skating dresses for her. I wasn’t suppose to go downstairs when she was having a fitting... Remember when we had all those people over when your filmed showed on 60 Minutes?…”
And, he keeps going on with absolutely accurate and pristine memories — much more fact-based than the fiction film or Tonya’s recent accounts have been. The tone of his voice is pleasant, almost jovial. After about 15-minutes, I ask him why they released him from jail after 110 days.
“I have no idea.”
I have a fairly good idea that he had failed competency to stand trial again, and that was the M.O. of the judicial system with the mentally ill — just dismiss the charges and get him out. I ask him if he had been sent to the Oregon State Hospital again and he says no. I don’t know if that is true or not but I could not press further because he then launches into a long story about how he was meant to be in jail because it gave him the time to do very important research about the Jubilee and End of Days. According to his research, May 12th is going to be a very important day.
"Oh, and something wonderful happened," he says.
I ask, “What?
"I met Jesus, who goes by Jean Pierre, in jail. I got to clean his shaving kit. I met my father, Sandy.”
I do not know what shocked me more: that Duanne thought this man was Jesus, or that inmates were allowed to have shaving kits! Not knowing what to say about any of this, I asked, “What was Jesus in jail for?”
“To see me,” he says quite simply.
Then his sentences lose their syntax, his words become a jumble trying to relate the Bible to the Constitution and various Founding Fathers to the End of Days and our Banking system. But all of this was said in the same tone of pleasantness and calm. I am left feeling that it wasn’t making sense to just ME. Maybe I am going crazy. How could I so clearly understand what he was saying about our childhood memories just a few minutes before, when now I am floundering in complete confusion, even though he seems to be carrying on with such clarity? It seems that the only thing different is that I'm not able to follow. After I say goodnight and we hang up, the dueling realities feel like an extension of what I had been talking about all day. I do not get much sleep that night.
These are strange times. I am still pounding the pavement to get THAT WAY MADNESS LIES… out for a wider audience. I wish people were coming to me for it they way they are seeking out SHARP EDGES. It feels much more urgent and relevant, but like I said, these are strange times. Maybe Duanne is on to something about the End of Days and I’m just not getting it.
But in the mean time, regardless, I will put one foot in front of the other and try to move forward. On Sunday, January 28, 2018 at 3:00 pm I am having a screening that is free and open to the public at the Auditorium at the Whitney Humanities Center at Yale University. Join us if you can, or send people who might be interested. I am inviting mental health advocates, first responders, and mental health professionals as well as students and faculty. Hopefully we can engage in meaningful conversation. It is, indeed, a bumpy road.
As 2017 comes to a close, I am caught between looking back, looking forward, and dealing with the present. I am overwhelmed with so many emotions, but the most important one I hold onto is gratitude. I had tremendous guidance and support this year, which allowed the film to be completed. Regina K. Scully, Abigail Disney and Geralyn Dreyfous, the trifecta of documentary executive producers (who are fiercely committed to quality filmmaking, advocacy, and philanthropy) gave me access to my voice and resources, allowing me to make THAT WAY MADNESS LIES... in a way that would not have otherwise been possible.
Abigail Disney recently met with Senators Kirsten Gillabrand and Cortez Mato about the film, and because of their interest gave them DVD copies. They are going to look into involving Senator Debbie Stebenow from Michigan to arrange for a screening of the film on Capitol Hill. That is a bucket list item for me!
I also got a call from Multnomah County Commissioner Susan Meieran, who wants to use the film as a cornerstone of research for mental health policy reform in Portland, Oregon.
My editor, collaborator and now friend, Anne Alvergue, and supervising editor Toby Shimin, were tough and tender blacksmiths of my film's structure. Composer Michael Bacon gave the film a musical soul. My co-producing team of Dewey Wigod, Stu Zakim, and Sammy Applebaum have been knocking on doors and trying to get the gatekeepers to answer. My life-long friend, graphic designer Susan Shepperd is deftly handling the website and social media. And still, I find my days filled with things to do in hopes that I can get more people to see the film.
Without a doubt, screening the film for the very first time at the Portland Art Museum was the highlight of the year for me. There has been nothing more rewarding or terrifying than showing the film in the town where it took place, and where many knew Duanne and me since we were children. The audience response of subsequent screenings has been filled with unexpected hugs and tears from audience members thanking me for giving a voice to THEIR stories for the very first time. Nothing could have surprised me more, or felt more rewarding. My experience was not unique, but I had a record of it that other's did not.
Many have asked about my brother Duanne after the narrative of the film ends in October of 2016. He has been arrested twice. The first time, after having spent a few months in jail, he was sent to the Oregon State Hospital for treat-for-trial-competency, which he failed. The charges were dismissed and he was released. Since the end of September, he has been sitting in the Multnomah County jail. I have no idea what his future holds. This December, on the fifth anniversary of our mother's tragic death, the Clackamas Town Center Shooting, Sandy Hook, the necessity to have armed security at my mother's memorial, and the recent onslaught of mass shootings this past fall, I have been experiencing PTSD and feeling quite hopeless about our inability to do anything for people with severe mental illness with regards to the increase in mass shootings. I recently wrote an opinion piece about my feelings, which journalist and mental health advocate Peter Early published on his blog on Dec. 22, 2017. We are linking to it here and hope that other outlets will pick it up and republish. I welcome your comments.
For me, the holiday season will forever be a mixed bag. However, the things that make it difficult will not stop me from thanking you for your help, friendship, and support, and wishing you peace, love, and laughter in the new year. And here's to, hopefully, a wide release of THAT WAY MADNESS LIES... so together we can start fixing mental health policy. Happy Holidays! Rest and replenish so we can soldier on.
There has been a long absence from this blog, but only because it has been a blur of activity that is positive and rewarding.
Before I fill you in on what has happened, we have two announcements: a redesign of the wwwmadnessthemovie.com website and upcoming screenings.
Our fabulous web designer, graphic design artist and life-long friend Susan Shepperd of Susan K. Shepperd Design has been working to update the site but was delayed only in getting content from me. I think it provides valuable information about the the film as well as mental health. We welcome your feedback as we continue on this journey. I have been posting to social media (Facebook) but it is nice to have a real home on the web for the film.
This is a screen grab of the new official trailer of THAT WAY MADNESS LIES... which is prominent on the homepage.
A film of this nature becomes a part of the zeitgeist by word of mouth by people who go screenings whether at festivals or part of my outreach and education programs. It is only from there that sales agents and distributors begin to see an interest and then hopefully a need to bring this to a wider audience. As most of you know, I see this film as a call to action to illuminate for our policymakers how inept the current system is and change laws to protect our society's most vulnerable — and often, with severe mental illness, that means protecting them from themselves.
I will be present for all of the screenings and the Q&As following each:
November 1, 2017, BIG APPLE FILM FESTIVAL — THAT WAY MADNESS LIES... is the opening night feature! Let me know if you can come but cannot get a ticket. I will see what I can do!
The trailer for the Big Apple Film Festival. Look sharp for footage from our film!
AND CLICK THIS LINK TO GET TICKETS!!! https://www.eventbrite.com/e/that-way-madness-lies-tickets-38549606912
November 3, 2017, the film will be screened in Galloway, New Jersey at Stockton Center on Successful Aging and Lighthouse International Film Festival. This screening is free and open to the public!!
November 11, 2017, 3:30pm: PRINCETON UNIVERSITY FILM FESTIVAL - free to the public!
Thank you all for your continued support. I hope to see you at one of these screenings!
To continue with the premiere in Portland, Oregon — I headed from our "headquarters" across the park to the state-of-art Whitsell Auditorium in the beautiful Portland Art Museum for a sound and picture check. We had added a semi-private matinee screening because I knew that many of my parents' generation did not want have to be downtown in the evening, especially during a Northwest storm. Others had mentioned that they did not like going downtown in the evening because of all the homeless on the streets. This struck me as the height of irony — they were willing to watch a movie in the comfort of the museum about someone they knew becoming homeless on the very streets they were traversing to get there, but the reality of it was too much. But I want to believe that perhaps the film would begin the process of blurring the lines between "us" and "them." The NW film Center was not keen on adding an extra screening as this particular series was a hard sell with even just one screening. But I knew that we could be the exception.
Even though it was an hour before the screening, there were people waiting in the galleries to get a seat. Among a certain age-group, seating at events seems to be a contact sport and I wondered if walkers, canes and umbrellas needed to be checked by a bouncer at the door. But at the same time it delighted me the importance these people placed on this screening. I met the projectionist who asked me to go into the empty theater for a sound and picture check. I sat alone in the most central seat as my Ojeda Films, Inc. logo appeared, then A Sandra Luckow Film, then the first notes of Michael Bacon's haunting soundtrack. My throat closed and tears stung my eyes. I was NOT going to make it through this screening. I wasn't even able to get through the sound and picture check. I waited for the intro to pass and I could feel my stomach preparing to lurch I walked up the aisle, told the projectionist it was all good and thanks. Then I proceeded directly to the bathroom to throw up. I kept hearing Bette Davis' voice in "All About Eve." "It's good luck before an audition." But this wasn't an audition and the minutes were ticking away. Miraculously, after that moment, I was good to go.
As people entered there were some special guests. For those of you who have been following this blog, you know that the 1970's singing group Black Hawk County donated the license to their song Oregon (I can't go home). This song, at once captures my childhood and speaks to the mourning of never being able to go back to what we loved.
Because of my persistence in pursuit of their song, they sought to make a new digital master of the album that contained the song I wanted. Bill found an unopened LP album in his grandmother's buffet and they found themselves back in the studio 40 years later and took the same picture that appeared on the original album cover. I was gobsmacked when they told me that because of the film they were going to start making some music together again in a studio Dennis has in the woods by a creek.
There were about 150 people at matinee, but it was a packed house at the evening screening.
I remember little about how I introduced the film, but according to my producing assistant, Columbia University student Sammy Applebaum, I said, "This is the story of my life; this is the story of our lives." And those words manifested themselves with productive discussions at the Q & A after the screenings. Unfortunately, the story told in "That Way Madness Lies..." is not unique. I just happen to have it documented.
And then it began. I sat next to my high school friend, Bobi Swan during both screenings and crushed her hand throughout. I watched the film, but felt the audience. They were with it at every turn, every scene, every frame. I was humbled by this communal experience that transcended the hour and forty minutes we sat there watching light dance across the screen with a combination of sounds.
The Q & As were led by Jason Renaud, the head of the Portland chapter of NAMI and the producer of Brian Lindstrom's film Alien Boy. The discussion was thoughtful and serious. As the evening continued, I had the words from a 1988 Tracey Chapman song repeating in my head — "don't you know, talking 'bout revolution — it sounds like a whisper — people gonna rise up."
It has been a week since the premiere of "That Way Madness Lies..." and I am still trying to process the intense whirlwind of activity and emotion. I feel the film ignited the stirrings of a revolution in mental health care by illuminating my family's experience. This blog entry is a visual snapshot of the adventure in Portland, Oregon the week of May 6-14, 2017.
I left JFK for Portland, Oregon on May 5th with the DCP in hand. "DCP" stands for Digital Cinema Package which is essentially a special hard drive that is delivered to the theater — like cans of films used to be in days gone by. It is encased in a special hard-body case that gives it this aura of being part arc of the covenant and part nuclear codes briefcase.
The first order of business the next morning was to have "breakfast" at Salt & Straw, a small batch ice cream parlor with the most delectable flavors. It is the experience of being able to taste everything and discuss the combinations with the staff that is almost as enjoyable as my "must-have" split cone of cinnamon snickerdoodle on the bottom and salted caramel ribbon on the top.
My friend Susan Shepperd (whom I have known since high school freshman-year Algebra) has been the most stalwart supporter and talented contributor to me and the film. She has a graphic design business in Portland: she designed this website, manages this blog, did all the publicity organization in Portland and was "my handler" which could not have been easy. She was laser focused, good-humored and oh-so-organized. We share a sisterly bond and I could not have been luckier to have her on board. I am a little worried that after this experience she will be fielding offers by many who were so impressed with her. I wonder if she would sign a exclusive 50-year contract? Having just completed publicity for a music festival with members of the Oregon Symphony she had her hand on the pulse of promoting the arts in Portland and set up a lot of media exposure for the film and me.
On Monday, May 8, Susan and I delivered the DCP to the Northwest Film Center and met Ben Popp who organized the NW Tracking Series (which "Madness" would be part of). Isn't it odd how it's the one-sheet poster hanging in a window that gives tangibility to the reality that you have made a movie? Strangely it doesn't feel as legitimate unless you have a poster! We also checked on the arrangements for Anne Alvergue, the co-writer and picture editor of "Madness" and I, who would be visiting an editing class to be held at the center the night before the premiere.
Coincidentally, my brother Duanne won the NW Film Center's youth competition in 1983 with his short "If Dreams Could Kill" (clips appear in "Madness) and subsequently found it to be a great resource for his creative endeavors. And then in 1996, my film "Belly Talkers" was shown as part of their Oddities and Enigma Series.
Through another high school chum, Lori Wolfe Stuart, Susan was able to arrange a long segment on Afternoon Live at KATU Channel 2 the ABC affiliate on Tuesday, May 9th (click here to watch the segment). The host of the show Tra'Renee Chambers is a mental health advocate, and having just received an award for her work at the Oregon Wellness Black and Gold Gala, she added a certain knowledge and gravitas to the interview.
The following day, May 10th, Portland's weekly newspaper Willamette Week came out with a review of the film (click here to read the review). 4/4 stars! Which, according to their key meant "a must-see for the year."
Expectations were building and I was getting nervous. On one hand, I would never have a more supportive audience than in my hometown — one filled with people with whom I grew up, knew my parents and my brother, and had been involved with the journey I documented. On the other hand, I would never be held to a higher standard than from those who experienced it first-hand with me. I wanted to honor all of our experiences. When I interviewed Peter Earley, the author of "Crazy: A Father's Search Through America's Mental Health Madness," he told me off-camera to prepare myself to be at once exalted and vilified for making this film because mental health issues are so politicized. And because of the KATU television segment, the Willamette Week review, and website traffic where people were watching the trailer, I started receiving communications from people who wanted help, were seeking answers, and wanted to share their own, similar experiences. After relating this news to executive producer Abigail Disney, she put me in touch with The Flawless Foundation — and I'm thrilled to say that this amazing mental health advocacy foundation is now helping me set up a resource page for our website! We will let everyone know when it's live. They also sent their communications assistant Megan Margolin to the screening to share the premiere on their social media outlets.
The Flawless Foundation also put me in touch with writer and radio talk show host Sheila Hamilton at KINK FM. On May 10th, I visited the KINK studios and Sheila put together a comprehensive program about the film and I am grateful for it. Click here to listen to it.
Later that evening, editor Anne Alvergue and I had the pleasure of looking at the work of beginning documentary editors at Pamela Minty's class at the NW Film Center. Their work and ideas were inspiring to me. Pam is doing fine work with them. While we were at the film center, Susan was busy making an airport run to pick up Klaus Fischer, my family's longest-standing friend who comes from Cologne, Germany. It marked his 30th trip to the Northwest.
Klaus, whom I have known since I was two, took the photo of my family on Spirit Lake on Mount St. Helens used in the film's poster. Having him with me was bittersweet. He calls himself my second father although I am his only daughter. Also, at the time of the premiere, he was the same age as my father had been at the time of his death on May 12, 2014 — just three years before. It was profoundly moving for me.
On May 11th, the morning of the premiere, I appeared on the Portland Today show on KGW TV, the NBC affiliate in Portland (click here to watch the segment).
The segment went well, and I was pleased to talk about the film one more time, but I knew the clock was ticking and the afternoon premiere was approaching quickly. After the interview, I headed back to the film's "Headquarters" (a great apartment across the park from the Portland Art Museum) to prepare myself for what was to come.
In my next blog I will share my thoughts (and photos) about the premiere and all that has happened since. Stay tuned!
On Sunday, April 31st at approximately 6:30pm EST, I raised a shot of high-end Bourbon with colorist Evan Anthony as we made the final decision before the output processes began (film-maker lingo for the final digital file creation). It was done! I was a bit dazed and disoriented as I left his Spanish Harlem studio. I took cover in one of the best taquerias north of the Rio Grande and had a plate of tacos al pastor. Halfway through the second one, I knew it was an appropriate way to celebrate finishing the film of my family's journey.
And, as you already know, the film's first public showing is going to be back home in Portland, Oregon, at the NW Film Center as part of their Northwest Tracking Series on Thursday, May 11, 2017, with two screenings: one at 3:00pm, the other 7:00pm in Whitsell Auditorium. There will also be a reception at 6 pm, which I will attend — I hope to see you there so I can thank you for your support. While preparing for the premiere, I recently revisited many thoughts I've had over the past seven years and put them into a FAQ page on this website. I hope you will take the time to read it, and let me know at the premiere if you have any other questions. I will be taking questions after both screenings.
Momentum for the film is beginning to build (we've just been accepted to another film-festival — more on that in the next blog) and I continue to hope that the film will be an agent for change in the way we see people with mental illness and the ineffectual systems that are supposed to help them and all of us.
p.s. We've just launched new social media pages for the film on Twitter and Instagram. Please join us there to follow the film's premiere and beyond.
The countdown to the world premiere has begun and seeing it all come together is so exciting. There is no better place to first show the film than in the beautiful screening room at the Portland Art Museum. I hope that if you are in Portland on May 11, you will consider coming to one of the screenings that day. 3 pm matinee tickets ARE ONLY AVAILABLE ONLINE (no tickets will be available at the door), so go to http://bit.ly/2nPWqtO to purchase yours!! Tickets for the 7pm screening are available at the door OR online at http://bit.ly/2n5x2Du. After the premiere, the film is playing on May 14 at the Nice International Film Festival. It is nominated for Best Feature Documentary, Best Feature Documentary Director and the Science and Education Award.
One of the most touching parts of the film for me, as we finish up, is to watch the names of all of you scroll up the screen as a reminder and a thank you of your contribution to the film. It moves by to the song "Oregon (I can't go home)." Most people from Oregon will remember this song by the group Black Hawk County who wrote the song to help an Oregon woman come home from a Turkish prison. The members of Black Hawk county will be attending the 3:00pm screening. Say hello to them if that is the screening you will attend. I am providing an upload of an MP3 of Michael Bacon's arrangement of the song as a thank you, and to whet your desire to see the film: click here.
Speaking of Michael Bacon, and the music for the film, it has been an amazing collaboration. When we first started talking about which instruments I liked, I told him cello and guitar. He plays them both, and many more in the band he has with his brother, The Bacon Brothers. Then I told him I would like some bassoon in there. He looked at me quizzically and said, "Interesting... a bassoon is not typically used for documentaries." My motivation was not necessarily musical. My life-long friend from Portland, Susan Shepperd, is the parent of a talented third-year Kovner Fellow at Juilliard. Forever wanting to be a matchmaker in this profession, I thought it would be fun for Blair to get some studio recording time. Her contributions to the music and therefore the film were magical. And Michael was delighted with her skill.
Michael, Sandra and Michael's lovely wife Betsy celebrated the completion of the music at one of Sandra's favorite restaurants in her neighborhood, The Pandering Pig. Leave it to Michael to ask for a discount since his last name is a pork product. The owner was utterly confused.
So the final mix of all the sound in the film is April 27th and the online will be on the 29th and 30th. In the meantime I have a team of lawyers working on errors and omissions insurance. Think of it like malpractice insurance for a producer. I have taken every step to minimize risk but when you are dealing with mental illness, it can be maddeningly unpredictable.
I am so looking forward to personally thanking many of you in Portland on May 11th. After the film was profiled on Pete Earley's blog, I have received so many messages from people who have had a similar experience. I hope the film will be a call to action and change.
Last week we shared with you the amazing news that our film "That Way Madness Lies…" was accepted into the Maryland International Film festival. This was exciting because it was the first festival acceptance, and a wonderful opportunity to have the film seen by the public — and to begin its mission of raising awareness of mental health care in America.
But, we have some very disappointing news to share today. There was a slim chance that the film's post-production would not be able to be completed in time with the financial resources we had, but there is also a whole other set of costs for clearances and insurances that are almost one third of the budget that we simply do not have. Director Sandra Luckow has a team standing by, a dedicated team that has to give paying work a priority OVER festival deadlines. Everyone, including you, our supporters have given as much as they have. Sandra has yet to take a penny and is supporting herself with university teaching. As things stand right now, it is unclear if the film will be completed. There is nothing left in the tank.
With great sadness we had to withdraw from the Maryland International Film Festival. Recognizing the importance of the film, the festival gave Director Sandra Luckow an invitation to show at next year's festival if it gets completed.
As things stand today, the film is "shut down" — that means we are at a complete stand still until another $150,000 is raised. Many people do not know the post-production costs of a film after photography and picture edit are finished. This our scenario:
The budget required to complete the film is:
All of you have already given to the film. This is not another direct request for money. However, this is a request for help. If you could just do ONE MORE THING please choose one of these action items and make it happen today:
CLICK HERE TO DONATE
Think of it this way: UNTREATED mental illness in this country costs an estimated 200 billion dollars a year, so much more than what it would take to give each and every person dignified health care which includes mental health. But we have to begin with an awareness as to where the problems lie. "That Way Madness Lies..." is our road map.
LATE BRAKING NEWS:
On the heels of this huge disappointment we received yet another festival acceptance -- the Nice International Film Festival in Nice, France at the end of May. But will it ever be seen? It is up to us.
It is with great excitement and pride that we share with you the news that OUR film "That Way Madness Lies…" has been accepted to the Maryland International Film Festival, Hagerstown. This is a fantastic first step toward getting the film in front of audiences, and sharing its message about mental health in America.
When we say OUR film, it is just that. OUR FILM. You, whether you were part of the original Kickstarter campaign back in 2012 – or whether you started supporting the film more recently – YOU are the reason this film exists and we are deeply grateful. Read a little bit about what one of our Executive Producers has to say about our film:
“I want nothing but great things for this film, not only as an advocacy tool (and it should be shown on Capitol Hill and the State Houses across the country and anywhere people care about gun control) but also as a source of support for people going through the extraordinary difficult problem of having an adult relative who is mentally ill.” - Executive Producer, Abigail Disney
Now, the real push begins. A mad dash to the finish that anyone who has run a long distance race (and make no mistake, this has been a marathon of epic proportions) knows well. Post production and legal clearances are our next challenges. And they are not, by any means, forgone conclusions. There is some concern that our funds will not cover everything.
However, for now, the news is good, and as a special treat we want to share with you three brand new previews of the film. These short glimpses at the film were made as part of an application for an NEA grant. Take a look, and let us know what you think at email@example.com, and don't forget to join us on Facebook.
Click here to watch the previews.
My Dear Supporters of "That Way Madness Lies..."
I write this to you on the last day of 2016, as an update, a reflection, and a call to action for a film that you have supported and is nearly finished — and sadly, is dangerously close to not being finished at all.
In documentary filmmaking the highest expenditures are in post-production: editing, sound editing, sound mixing, color correction and digital matching. In addition there are rental fees for studio facilities, lawyers fees for clearances, and errors and omissions insurance, not to mention publicity and distribution expenses. We have been able to complete three-quarters of the film on one-third of the budget needed because people have generously allowed delayed payment for much of their work. However, now we are up against post-production deadlines that cannot be met without funds. And so, once again Dear Supporters, I am asking for your help. This time to finish the film. Please reach out to anyone you know who could make a tax-deductible donation to the International Documentary Association ear-marked for "That Way Madness Lies..." — you can donate here.
Regardless for whom you voted for this past November, the fact is, the only candidate in the history of the United States who had a platform and priority for mental health care did not win; and the current president-elect has yet to put the issue on his radar. Yet, the ANNUAL costs of untreated mental illness in this country are upward of $200 billion a year. Imagine the possibilities if we could significantly reduce that cost with less-expensive and more efficient care made possible by an awareness of what is broken within our contradictory system. It remains my mission to show our lawmakers and mental health professionals what the obstacles and frustrations of the system are and how they affect everyone with our film “That way Madness Lies…”. We are so close to making it happen. Won’t you please help today?
The news is not all bad. We did make a lot of progress this year, and that’s why it’s so hard to see the finish line and realize we might not make it. Here is an overview of the tremendous progress we made last year:
In December of last year Regina K. Scully, the founder of Artemis Rising Foundations became the largest donor to the film with a donation of approximately 25% of the budget. This donation allowed us to propel the film forward into the last shoots and post-production. Joining the team was Anne Alvergue as Editor/co-writer, and Toby Shimin as Supervising Editor. These two women have provided their insightful talents to the film and helped, supported, and guided me to find the gems in countless hours of footage. It is difficult material not only because it is a personal film, but because the complexities and contradictions, legal and medical terminology and minutia can be mind-numbing. How do you show how difficult it is to traverse this broken, frustrating system without losing your audience? It has taken us longer than expected to find the way in, but our test screenings indicate that people are responding to it intimately and viscerally.
I hesitate to make a statement like the one above because it might suggest that we are sitting around waiting to be inspired. We are working full time, combing though footage, trying new things, researching, fact checking, writing and rewriting narration, test screening at least 40 hours a week. And for me this is on top of teaching three classes at Yale and Columbia Universities.
In October, Abigail E. Disney and her company Fork Films awarded us a generous grant for about 12% of the budget.
Emmy award winning composer Michael Bacon came aboard to write the original score and it has been a pleasure to work with him.
Songwriter Bill Coleman from the band Black Hawk County agreed to license the song Oregon (I Can't Go Home.) to the film. It has such meaning for anyone who was in Oregon in the 1970's and had a connection with the film "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" of which I was unaware until I contacted Bill.
We then set our sights on the Berlinale Film Festival, one of the biggest film markets in the world, that only accepted three American documentary films last year. Unfortunately, we were not accepted, but the blow was soften by the fact that we would not have been able to attend for lack of funds.
Now we have our sights set on premiering at perhaps the most appropriate place — The Portland International Film Festival, February 9-28. Here’s hoping we are accepted!
I have come to learn that film festivals consider far more than just the quality of the film in its decision to accept and although it is always a disappointing blow to my ego when rejected, a festival is and of itself an organic artistic creation of theme where individual pieces must contribute to a greater whole.
Below are the festival where I have applied thus far. Keep your fingers crossed if there is one in an area near you.
Here's to a healthy. peaceful and happy 2017. And to the year that will premiere "That Way Madness Lies..."
Thank you for all your support to this important film and cause!
Sandra Luckow is an award winning filmmaker based in New York City. Her films include: Sharp Edges; Belly Talkers; A World Within; That Way Madness Lies…
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